Baseballs, Butterflies, & Blessings

Last week was the due date of our first baby. It was a really hard day for both of us. We miss that baby and are so sad to not know him or hold him now. I believe that in heaven we will all have jobs that use our gifts and talents to glorify God. While I have no Biblical proof, I have a theory that maybe there is a group of women in heaven who so deeply yearned for children and loved being mothers when they eventually were blessed with children (women like Hannah, Sarah, and Elizabeth) and that maybe their job is to hold and love on the babies & children whose mommies & daddies aren't there to hold them yet. It brings me a lot of comfort to think that maybe they are holding my baby now until I'm there. It's also comforting to me in some ways to think that my baby knows Jesus now. He'll never go through the pain of a scraped knee or a broken heart or hurt feelings. Rather, he's already in eternity worshipping Jesus. I'm selfishly sad I don't get to hold him or know him now but I am grateful he is with my God (Psalm 22 & Psalm 119) & I look forward to holding him myself in heaven someday. Thanks to so many of you for your prayers, cards, phone calls, etc. last week. We are deeply blessed to have you in our lives as we go through a difficult 6 mts!