It's Wednesday morning. That means I have approximately 2 hours of time to do what I need to do while Will is at school and Ellie is spending the morning with her Lovie.
I need to clean my house (again.)
I need to run an errand for my husband.
I need to wash my hair.
I need to exercise.
But today, I threw those needs out the window. (For a little while)
I'm allowing myself one hour at Starbucks to try to catch up on some blogging and website work for the marathon & team Where There's a Will, There's a Way.
I have 52 minutes remaining.
I have a great playlist on my headphones & I'm sitting outside like a real unemployed writer with my laptop or maybe a college student (except that I no longer look 19. But I can pretend.)
I ordered a yummy decaf drink. I'm pretending it is no-carb and sugar-free. The pretend version is so much yummier. While I'm at it, I think I'll pretend that I'm out for a run too. And that my hair is clean.
Goodness, look how quickly I'm crossing things off my to do list!
I'm really struggling with feeling overwhelmed lately. Will is in half day kindergarten and Mommy is struggling. Big time. The tears aren't helping things. (Mostly mine. Seriously - 4 weeks in & I still cry when I drop him off sometimes (after he gets out of the car.) How can I have a kindergartener?!)
I love the half day - he's not ready for a full day and still takes daily naps. He also sleeps late and the responsible adult around here has a hard time waking up herself so a school that starts at 9:30 is kind of ideal for us.
But I always feel so rushed. I feel like we race to get out the door and get homework done and I drop him off & then Ellie and I race around town to do errands or to accomplish tasks at home and then we race thru therapy and then we race back to get Will and then we race to get home for naps. I'm told that other moms of kids in half day school say it is always a hard season.
I have dropped out of Bible Study Fellowship for this year. I loved it but at this season of life I knew I needed to focus on my kids and spouse and house. Also, there's the whole time conflict with Will's school and I don't think they would appreciate me walking in an hour late.
My mom says it's not saying "no." She says it is "making choices."
I'm trying to make choices - to exercise more and to clean my house and to play with my kids and to spend time with girlfriends.
I'm having a hard time finding time to blog.
I'm also having a hard time keeping my house clean and feeling like I ever get on top of just regular house maintanence projects.
Good grief - the amount of small plastic action figures in my life are going to push me over the edge.
So here's my question. (Finally.)
All of you moms out there of small children:
Is this normal?
Do you always feel behind?
Do you have any great organization tricks?
I could look on pinterest but I'm not really sure how that whole pinning thing works. Maybe there is a facebook support group for people who can't seem to get their act together? I don't know how to do facebook either.
Yes. I know it is 2012.
(Do you know what goes down fast? A pretend no carb, no sugar decaf Starbucks treat. )
If you can offer a mommy some advice, I would so love it.
It seems like people always tell moms of young kids that "the dishes will wait but our children will grow up too fast and be gone."
But here's the thing that hit me a few years ago,
Yes, those dishes will wait. But the pile will grow and grow and if I neglect the dishes and laundry then someone will call CPS on me and I will lose my children.
I don't want to be supermom. I am fully aware I can't do it all.
I just don't want to always feel so rushed.
Any tricks to help you get through the day without feeling so rushed?
Any tricks to help you feel like the kitchen or living room that you just picked up isn't exploding already?
(better yet perhaps)
any affirmations that maybe you too, while in the years of little people in your home, feel this way? Is this normal?
Back to my pretend life. And also catching up. 36 minutes.